It has been a long time since I have visited Newsvine: this last year has been filled with many heartaches and some happiness. For those who have followed my columns, enjoyed my zoo animal stories, and given wonderful advise regarding my Carbon...I would like to share with you her passing.
My Carbon was the center of several stories filled with love, happiness, and heartache. she led a very fullfilling life with my son and me. We rescued Carbon at 9 months from sever abuse including: eye trauma, head, both ACLs, and emotional damage. Her new life of love, happiness, and lots of hikes led to a sweet, kind, loyal nanny dog. She helped to raise another pitt whom she took under her loving wing. Carbon adored Hayley and Hay loved her adopted mom Carbon. They were inseparable until we took Carbon to the bereavement room 6 years later.
In October of 2013 Carbon became extremely ill, I woke up and found Carbie down, in pain, and struggling to breath. I rushed her to the vet, we discussed her history and came to the decision that Carbon would be kept comfortable at this stage. I knew this was the end, she would not eat, I spoon fed her, I kept her at my bedside and with my son's help she carried to her couch. I laid with her all night, they had given me the time off from work; they knew I loved my Carbie as my own child. I kept the heating pad on her knees and her stomach, kept her with Hayley and we had two other visits to the vet that week to keep her pain minimal. I did not want her to be screaming in pain and have only those memories at the end. I wanted her to be comfortable, know I was there, and then while she was comfy take her in. My son was home with her, I went to work, Carbon had had a good day. I came home to my Carbon wagging her tail and 'trying to walk', she had lost the ability to stand and walk. I knew immediately that the time had come. I spoke with my son, and our vet, we decided to take her the next day. Her last day, I gave her cookies and some M&Ms, she could eat neither; however, she licked them. We sat in the front yard on her pink blankie and watched Hayley play with Josh, this was her favorite place.
I held my girl all night and on October 20, 2013, my son and I carried our Carbon to the vet and they had a special room ready. I laid by her side, Josh her boy, held her head and we let her know Hayley would be cared for and it was time to let go. She knew she was the most love child in the world and then she went to sleep, never to wake again. I am still mourning her.